In society alcoholics, drug addicts, sex addicts, etc. are often looked down upon. People normal lock up their goods, talk about them and wonder how did they get hooked on their drug of choice. Well, being a food addict is no different. The only difference is................ you have to eat to live, which makes being addicted to food an even harder drug to kick. Honestly, I am no different than the drug addict on the street. I have done some crazy things to get food. I have even hid my addiction for years from everyone.
One memory of doing something most people would describe as gross, insane, disgusting, etc. was when I was in 6th grade. My mother taught at a Jr. High School and I would ride the bus from my elementary school to her school daily. I remember one of her students bringing chocolate chip cookies. My mother doesn't eat chocolate and threw the cookies in the trash. When my mom left her classroom, I went into the trash and got the cookies out. I put them in my bag and I ate them. Now, the cookies weren't just laying on top on a stack of papers, students had thrown paper balls, etc. on top of them and the trash can was under the pencil sharpener. Looking back, what makes me different from a crack head who steals to get his/her fix?
I am embarrassed to admit that in years past, I have shaken my head at drug addicts, I have not understood how somebody can get addicted to a control substance. Well............. I now feel like the pot calling the kettle black, because I have an addiction and just like any other addict, my addiction was slowly killing me..............
Nicole girl I know all too well what you are talking about. You know the worst part of the yo-yo dieting was when someone knew you were "on a diet"...they would always call me when I was pulling into the McDonald's drivethru...I would not answer because I did not want them to hear me ordering...or God forbid if I was already in the drive thru and they would call...I would quickly answer put them on hold or mute then order and wait til i leave the drive thru to return to the call...who wants to put up with being grilled about what you doing at Mickey D's aren't you supposed to be dieting. If I drove by mcdonalds it was like it was calling me...like you said I had to eat...so why not eat my drug of choice and enjoy every minute of that high...must was somethin in those fries. whoooa and wow at the same time...over and out.
ReplyDeleteNicole, just like the person who abused drugs; I'm glad you're on the wagon. This time you will not fall off. I won't let you......
ReplyDeleteShell, just like a drug addict, you can't keep me on the wagon. You can't keep a crack head from falling off, and you can't get a food addict from using their drug. This is something I have to do myself and I have to figure out why I use food as a drug and find other ways to deal with hurt.
ReplyDeleteTab, lady, I do know what you are talking about! I have done the same thing. I didn't want anyone to hear me order a big mac, a double cheese burger, a large fry, and a apple pie, with a diet coke.
ReplyDeleteI totally get this...............I do this too.....hiding the food..........it is sad! Wow----I am so proud of you for opening up like this. I don't know if I could do it! I can't wait to get to spring of 2010---------and find out exactly what the life-changing moment was for you! I will continue reading...........
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