Any ole' excuse will do............

In a previous blog, I explained that my mom cooked breakfast daily.  She also cooked lunch (on weekends, holidays, and summer breaks), and dinner. She never bought chips, cookies, etc. so getting junk food was a treat and boy was it hard.  Eating out was a REAL treat and  I remember, I would look for any excuse in the world to eat out and my mom would find a any reason for us to eat at home. LOL.  As an adult I get it.......... we didn't have a lot of money so eating out just wasn't in the budget.  As a kid I so craved salty, surgary, fat-filled food and I would go through any lengths to get it.  I remember going up the street to Mrs. Bolton's house, (my old baby sitter who kept me from a baby until I went to school, God rest her soul...... she was such a wonderful lady).  I would go up there and just eat and eat, and if they didn't have the junky snacks I wanted, she would get them for me, or she would take me to get FAST FOOD.  Now, I never let my parents know this, that would have ruined everything.  Once, I went to the bathroom and I heard her husband say, "I think Nicole just comes up here to eat."  As a child I didn't understand the magnitude of his comment.  I just thought, man, Mr. Bolton is on to my game.  Now, I feel humilated and embarrassed by his statement.  How embarrassing, I went to their home and acted as if my parents did feed me.  I appeared to be a user who only wanted something from them.  I guess in a way that was true, who am I fooling, that is all the way true.  I just feel horrible about it. 

During the summers we stayed in Dahlongea, GA. and my grandpa would give me $5.00 a day.  Most days I put the $5.00 in my drawer, other days I would walk to the corner store and buy me my junk food treats.  I would get funyan's, snickers, and a Nehi peach drink.  Then I would go around the block to the fudge factory and load up there.  On good days, my friends and I would race to the McDonald's and I would get my fast food lunch.  McDonald's was only 2 miles away.  Then we would walk back and I would act as if I hadn't eaten anything and I would eat whatever my mom had cooked.


Now, when I started driving........ three things happened. 1) I got a job 2) I was able to feed my food addiction without anyone knowing 3) I really started gaining weight. 

Now, getting a job........ I started working at Hardee's and I ate from the minute I got to work until the minute I left.  I ate fry after fry after fry, and I had unlimited amount of fountain soda.  Then, I would come home and swear Hardee's food was nasty. Ha! That was such a lie.  We sold chicken, biscuits ice cream, and milk shakes.  I would put ice cream on top of the biscuits, add ice cream and fresh strawberries. 

Being able to feed my habit was so much easier and since I had a job I had my own money and nobody would ever know.  I would skip school at lunch, leave, go get my drug, eat in the car and come back to school before anyone ever knew.  Looking back it is sort of funny.  I would sprint to the car, drive to a drive-thru, eat super fast, then sprint back to class before anyone ever knew.

Lastly, I really started gaining weight.  I probably gained 20lbs when I turned 16 and got the keys to my own car. 

This is where the crazy dieting began...................